BLAG Ramblings of a crazy old fool

24May/100

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So I would blame the weather being nice and cold for me being forgetful and not updating this internets thing, but the reality is I was just lazy. Not that I think anyone's really just hanging on to every word I type (cept the spammers in the quotes section, ni hao guys!), but there's facebook and such for that.

Been really busy recently, working a lot and trying to get things done as best as possible. The presentation from 6 months ago went decently well, I've never been a good public speaker but I think I got most people's questions answered at least. Technical issues not withstanding, it went ok I think?

Managed to get a week off of work over the Christmas holiday season, so visited with family and hung out with friends. Possibly best Christmas ever, but we'll see if next year can top it! Did I mention I've been working a lot? Yeah, I've been working a lot. Currently I'm the building/technical representative for a major infrastructure upgrade that's going on where I work. They are ripping out and replacing all the old data wiring, and I'm in charge of answering their questions, keeping track of everything, and preventing as much downtime as possible for the staff and students during end-of-year work and end-of-course testing/assessment. I'm not gonna lie, it's a bitch. Though I do typically get to take off early on Fridays because of all the meetings and out of hours work. I suppose that's a trade off for not getting paid for overtime worked. /sigh

Eventually got around to releasing the new version of the Eminence website for my guild. I'd been rebuilding a few versions for the last couple years, but haven't gotten one to a releasable state until recently. So far the review has been positive, with a few graphical bugs to work out. Got some great input from some of the guildies on images, color schemes, etc. I'm glad it's becoming a collaborative project!

I've been doing some freelance work as well; not really planning on it, but I got volunteered :) I'm toying with the idea I had a few years back of starting a small business doing PC repair for the local area. I usually end up making about $20 or so an hour doing repair work, and usually get a job or three a month. I had been thinking about commercializing and setting up rates and such, but I'm not sure it would work well considering my availability. I had been planning to market towards local small businesses, rather than have them pay $100/hr or something to the big companies to fix their issues. I've think I've gotten more varied work experience from this than I have from my real job. :(

Also working on HP and Dell certification, tests are coming up soon and they want me to be able to order warranty parts. Yay. By the way, where's the A+, Network+, and Security+ certification reimbursement I was told I could get when I was hired 3 years ago? Or for that matter, the tuition reimbursement that made me choose this job over another that offered it? bleh.

Speaking of who, I may be moving this summer. I've talked about it before, but I  do still want a change of pace, scenery, and most of all WEATHER! I know my best friend is planning to move this summer to be closer to family, and I think I may move as well. I've toyed with the idea of becoming a police officer as well. I've always wanted to do so, but never had the opportunity. With the benefits attached from becoming one up there, it kinda seems stupid not to try. We shall see.

Well that's about all I can think of at the moment. Brain buffer running low, need sleep and all that. I'll let you know if the Space Pandas invade or something, but other than that it may be eerily quiet around here for a while. You know, like normal. ;D

28Apr/100

How can I ask you how you feel when I can't stand to know the answer?
I know what I want, but do you feel the same?

I want to live my life, and I want to do it with you. You are my everything, but I want you to be more. I want to experience all that life has to offer, but not on my own. Everything that we have now is wonderful, but could it be better?

Do you want more? Are you happy? I want you to be happy, more than anything I want for myself. I'll gladly live my life and never say a word if that is what it means. I know your ambitions, your likes. I know what you want to do, and I know what I do too.

I want to have a home, a family; I want you to be part of it. But I can't ask. I can't know the answer because knowing may change the outcome. the Heisenberg Uncertainty principle applies to love and life as much as it does to physics. If I ask, it changes everything. If I don't, I'll never know.

Can I live with that? I can. I can spend my life never asking, never knowing, and be happy. I'll spend what time I can to make sure your life is great, and that you are happy. You mean everything to me, and I want you to know.

But I can't take that chance, that risk. To know one way or the other, will make a difference. One day I may ask, but not today.

I don't want something fleeting, or physical. I want something that lasts, forever. I want to know the answer, but I can't ask. Not now. Maybe never.

But if you know, will you tell me? If it won't change anything, will it matter? If it will, is it worth it?

I think, to me, it is.

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28Apr/100

Mobile Devices

I shouldn't try to type stuff on my iPod. Either I deleted my last post or it went somewhere else on the Internet. Neither of which I wanted :(

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